What Does Friendship Mean To You?

What does friendship mean to you? Really? I have heard that line for the longest time and I still don't know what that means at times. Friendship to me is like treating them as family and nothing comes between that. I have met so many people and lost so many people but now I am making awesome new friends that I will never let go. There's so many people that come to mind that I think are my family but only certain ones know what I go through on a every day basis. I have not told many people about what has been going on with myself lately but I think it's time. I have Epilepsy which is a seizure disorder that I can not get rid of. I wish there was a way but there isn't. I have been living life with Epilepsy for all my life and I hate it but i got to deal with it. I try to keep this a big secret and keep it to myself until I know how many people will not judge me because of this.

I have lost so many friends and I do not want to lose anymore friends cause of this shit I am dealing with. Living with Epilepsy is so hard I try not to cry every day and I stay strong so no one will see the pain i deal with every time I wake up. The sucky part about it is I have to take so many pills I kinda get sick and tired of taking them at times. I know I have to take them so I am not in the hospital which I have been in and out of hospitals through out my life. I try to stay out of them as much as possible. I have a wonderful boyfriend in Real Life and he is my Second life Husband named McGee Waddington. We have been together for almost 4 years and I am loving each day. I was so scared to tell McGee that I have a seizure disorder but he took me for who I am not for what disability I have which makes me love him more and more each day. I do not know what I would do without him in my life.

Before I met my husband McGee, I was married in Real Life to someone that was a cheater, a liar and someone never took the time to understand what I needed as in medical care. My ex husband's thought of medical care was to keep me locked in the hospital in the Behavioral Unit which did work at times but it wasn't what i needed. I was with him for 6 years and left him when I was 26 years old. I am 28 years old and already divorced which I am very happy about. Granted I tried to make things work between me and my ex husband but it didn't work out. Now he is engaged to be married which will be his third marriage and I am with my love of my life McGee. I moved from New Hampshire to Texas just so I can be with my Second life husband. Things are going great but then there are times where we both get angry and fight. Every couple fights but we always make the time we fought up watching movies or playing on the Xbox360.

Everyone life's their life their own way and I do not interfere with what they should or should not do. When it comes to my friends and family(either in Real life or in Second life) I always try to make things work between everyone. If I fight with someone yes it does take me sometime to say my sorries but I always do the right thing in the end. I hope that gives you some insight about the person you know as Violet TopHat-Waddington and I truly hope I don't lose anyone.

I love you all and you all have a piece of my heart no matter where you are.

-Violet TopHat-Waddington